▪tw mentions of self harm, mental illnesses, and death▪ why am I so ugly. why is my hair like this. why do my parents even care anymore, they try so hard but none of it helps. leave me alone. why do I have no friends. why do none of my friends really know me I should say, shit my parents barely even know me. why do my teeth look like this. why am I so fat. why am I a girl. why aren't I a guy. why cant I be both. why cant I be neither. why why why why why. Idk who i even am anymore. I want someone to cry to and hug but I want them to respond how I want them to respond. I dont want to tell u why sometimes, I just wanna be held then I'll talk abt it if I want. i want to be alone but with so...
▪tw mentions of self harm, mental illnesses, and death▪
why am I so ugly. why is my hair like this. why do my parents even care anymore, they try so hard but none of it helps. leave me alone. why do I have no friends. why do none of my friends really know me I should say, shit my parents barely even know me. why do my teeth look like this. why am I so fat. why am I a girl. why aren't I a guy. why cant I be both. why cant I be neither. why why why why why. Idk who i even am anymore. I want someone to cry to and hug but I want them to respond how I want them to respond. I dont want to tell u why sometimes, I just wanna be held then I'll talk abt it if I want. i want to be alone but with so...
@way._too_.crazy oh God I realate with so much of that, I'm sorry that u think those things and all of that. I also relate with the tics, my family thinks that I have them and want me to be sent to a dr. or something. but just know that there r people who care abt u, even if u haven't met them yet, they're still there. anyways have a wonderful day :)
I have a lot of similar thoughts to these, I am here for you if you need to talk btw, I have no close friends or people that actually care about me and the only person I did have killed themselves... and my bestfriend has a crush on me... which sucks cause I cant fall in love... and I also feel so evil because I want death all around me like a carpet . I dont quiet see death as a bad thing but as a new dimension to be in, a better dimension. I also get told I am too young to do anything a lot. And my parents keep hiding stuff from me like secrets, and anything I could kill myself with. My dr. Thinks i have social anxiety but i disagree, it's something more psychotic then that considering i have multiple different identities that people do not understand because it's too in-mind to figure out, they just think its voices in my head, but I am them, we live together in my brain, with no escape except for death, it feels like I'm kidnapped from them and they won't let me go, only threaten me and hurt me to shut up. The people combined that live in my head are combined into the person I am on the outside, but none of them will shut the hell up, it's so freaking annoying I want all of them dead so I try to kill them off but then all deadly things get tookin away. I make myself do things I dont wanna do which the other people hate. I have random ticks or mini-seizures sometimes and I cant fully control it. Anyways ima shut up now :)