vegetable gardener punk 🤨 idek ... theres a hardcore show today i want to go to likeee im gonna try to go but im so nervous i want to go to more concerts and live music stuff but its just very scaryyy like i just sit at a table the whole time just like🧍🏽o_o like not moving at all 😀 i feel so awkward but idk what else to do like i want to get up and jump around but idk how likeee aghh its not so simple as just get up and do it like
vegetable gardener punk 🤨 idek ... theres a hardcore show today i want to go to likeee im gonna try to go but im so nervous i want to go to more concerts and live music stuff but its just very scaryyy like i just sit at a table the whole time just like🧍🏽o_o like not moving at all 😀 i feel so awkward but idk what else to do like i want to get up and jump around but idk how likeee aghh its not so simple as just get up and do it like
ive been to live music stuff 2 other times i think that was a few months ago i genuinely have no idea how i did that ? anxiety is so random sometimes like ill be able to do something one time but when i try to do that same thing again i cant its like shouldnt it be easier the more i do it ? ig not it really is just random for me
i really want to go to this one today :( like its a day time one so i think it'll be a bit less intimidating than usual. i just remembered i have some anxiety meds i can take so maybe that'll help.. idk probably about a 20% chance i actually make it into the show rn idk how to make it any easier i cant
yeah idk i just dont want to but stuck there sitting awkwardly like i usually am :[ and also a thing is since i go alone i just feel really depressing like it would be different if i was sitting there with a friend talking but im sitting there not talking to anyone probably not smiling just literally o_o ive been trying to find people to go with but like yeah hasnt happen yet :/