vegetable gardener punk ๐คจ idek ... theres a hardcore show today i want to go to likeee im gonna try to go but im so nervous i want to go to more concerts and live music stuff but its just very scaryyy like i just sit at a table the whole time just like๐ง๐ฝo_o like not moving at all ๐ i feel so awkward but idk what else to do like i want to get up and jump around but idk how likeee aghh its not so simple as just get up and do it like
vegetable gardener punk ๐คจ idek ... theres a hardcore show today i want to go to likeee im gonna try to go but im so nervous i want to go to more concerts and live music stuff but its just very scaryyy like i just sit at a table the whole time just like๐ง๐ฝo_o like not moving at all ๐ i feel so awkward but idk what else to do like i want to get up and jump around but idk how likeee aghh its not so simple as just get up and do it like
ive been to live music stuff 2 other times i think that was a few months ago i genuinely have no idea how i did that ? anxiety is so random sometimes like ill be able to do something one time but when i try to do that same thing again i cant its like shouldnt it be easier the more i do it ? ig not it really is just random for me
i really want to go to this one today :( like its a day time one so i think it'll be a bit less intimidating than usual. i just remembered i have some anxiety meds i can take so maybe that'll help.. idk probably about a 20% chance i actually make it into the show rn idk how to make it any easier i cant
yeah idk i just dont want to but stuck there sitting awkwardly like i usually am :[ and also a thing is since i go alone i just feel really depressing like it would be different if i was sitting there with a friend talking but im sitting there not talking to anyone probably not smiling just literally o_o ive been trying to find people to go with but like yeah hasnt happen yet :/