Too scared to feel, too broken to trust. How can you know it's maturity and not just lust? There's something on my lips that dies at the last moment. I feel it pouring out of my heart. I feel it choking in my throat but it just shivers on my lips, and I fall silent. I can't just let it out. Not even in loneliness, not even to myself. It's like some weight on my chest, i feel its heaviness when i think about it. But i can't make sense out of it. What kind of things that I don't know but can feel? What kind of pain is this that makes me numb but I don't know its wound? I am searching for my answers, I am searching for my peace...but until I find out, i have to hide. I need to hide in my smile...
Too scared to feel, too broken to trust. How can you know it's maturity and not just lust? There's something on my lips that dies at the last moment. I feel it pouring out of my heart. I feel it choking in my throat but it just shivers on my lips, and I fall silent. I can't just let it out. Not even in loneliness, not even to myself. It's like some weight on my chest, i feel its heaviness when i think about it. But i can't make sense out of it. What kind of things that I don't know but can feel? What kind of pain is this that makes me numb but I don't know its wound? I am searching for my answers, I am searching for my peace...but until I find out, i have to hide. I need to hide in my smile...